Monday, March 23, 2009

What's It All About Anyway?

Intentional Winning: Victory by design. Creating the journey and the outcome for every aspect of your life by participating in the process. That's how I define Intentional Winning In Life, but it seems that it has a deep seated core that is balance.

To create the journey and the outcome for every aspect of your life by participating in the process, you better have your you-know-what together! I do really well most of the time for all categories of my life. I never get all of it right at the same time, and I also have the Achilles heal in my life that is my weight and body image. That's what is bringing this all up and out today.

I can't find the balance I need to get this weight off and feel good about my body.

I know I'm failing when Dave makes mention that my stomach is showing...while I'm wearing jeans (not ill fitting) and an over sized t-shirt. Showing? What he was really saying was, "I just noticed how fat you really are." Now this is not a slam Dave post, it's an acknowledgement that he's right. I need to find a way to manage my meals, exercise consistently, and get the weight off.

The really tough part is that he doesn't understand my struggle. So I need to get to work, on my own and find the motivation to intentionally exercise, be acutely aware of every morsel I put in my mouth, and think about it as the way I live, not the difficult situation it appears to be right now. I know I can do it. I can. I will.


TaniaR said...

OH I can so relate Kathy!

I have decided, for me, it's all to do with scheduling. I have now scheduled a daily 2 kilometer walk for me and my son, Connor.

I'm on day three of power walking/ hyperventalating, whatever one wants to call it. The added 40 lbs of pushing Connor replaces ankle weights.

Nobody gets the struggle unless they are going through it. No part of it is easy.

Good luck Kathy! :-)

Mark Reyland said...

I feel that pain kathy's not something anyone knows who has not had to deal with it.

But It is what it is...and it doesn't define you.

Kathy said...

Thanks for the kind and encouraging words! I know I can do it, it's just hard to face the truth sometimes. I went to the gym today and was diligent about my diet. I'm not weighing myself for a full month.